Saturday, October 23, 2010  

[Taking stock...]

Most of us go through life in a rush. We're forever rushing from one place to the next. Rushing from one piece of work to the next. How often do we get a chance to sit and think and take stock of our life?

Having some time on my hands before I start at my new job in November, I am thinking about my life. I'm not really doing it in a structured way. Just on and off, when I have time or when there's nothing on my mind.

I'm trying to forget about how things are done in my previous workplace. About a year back, this lady from another company joined us. During one of the dialogue sessions, she kept going on and on about how things were done in her previous workplace. It annoyed me to no end, but I looked the other way, seeing how she was new and stuff. Probably a transitional thing.

Fast forward to one year later. A few weeks before I left my job. We had another dialogue session. One year on, she was still quoting examples from her old workplace. It got to the point where I just tuned out and stopped listening to her. Another colleague whispered in my ear.

"If she liked her previous workplace so much, maybe she should go back."

Now that I am in her shoes, I can see how easily I could fall into the same trap - not adapting to the new environment. I've been for one pre-employment brief so far and I can already tell there would be a lot of adapting to do.

I thought I was doing a good job of forgetting about what has been and preparing for what will be, until I spoke to an ex-colleague earlier on MSN. She updated me about some of things that are happening and at the end of it, I realised that my state of mind has been messed up. I was already in the this-is-a-new-beginning phase but now I'm halfway back in the I-need-to-forget phase.

So work-wise, it is kinda stressful. Mainly because I don't know what's coming. I've told myself to stop thinking about it. Obsessing about it isn't going to help. So why bother? Why not just forget about it, enjoy my break (I really needed this break to bum around), and take it as it comes later. It's not as if I would be able to change anything now anyway.




I learned something about myself recently.

I lose my temper easily. I've known that for a long time. But now I think I finally know why.

When things don't go my way, or when I find myself in a situation I do not like, I will takes steps to change the situation. I am not the type to resign myself to "fate" and let things be. I will change it. Doesn't matter how long or how difficult it is. If it is doable, I will get it done. That's it. However, if there is nothing I can do about it. I'll get pissed. I'll lose my temper. I won't be happy. Until the situation changes.

Realising this will help me manage my temper in the future. I hope.

^^^ by Locksley @ 12:30 AM. 1 comments.
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yes, enjoy your break!
and yeah i hope so too. haha! :P
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